Swine flu!

Everyone in the house is down with flu! Even me! Felt so vulnerable now. Test tomorrow, Assignment due on Friday, all alone by myself in this remote room, Baby is not around, all these make me feel even worse! Counting down everyday and it just seems like ages. ONLY 2 weeks has passed! 7 weeks more ahead! Worst thing - We don't even know when he can come over! All these uncertainties has been spinning in my head since 2nd April.. If I would have stayed in Australia, nothing like things would happened. But if I were to do so, Baby might be deported back to SG anytime if he's caught overstaying. Oh well, let's be optimistic. It's not a bad thing though, take it as a test to our relationship. It sucks, I cant live without my Baby but still I'm trying to adapt. The thought of going back to SG for the weekend is always there in my mind, should I or should I not? Hmmm............................. Let's see!

Blinded dreams

There have been times when we have all been blinded in a dream. A dream so far from reality. Recently, I've been pondering when this dream of mine will come to a reality. Does true and everlasting love exist? Sis mentioned about her boyfriend today, they broke up. Her ex bf is still an asshole I guess. All the cheating and lying. Will it happen to me again? I'm scared. The feeling of it is overpowering me. We've gone through a lot and that was a mistake. Let bygones be bygones. Let's forgive and forget. I really do wonder how the hell can I tolerate such behaviour even though I've seen so much of these when I was young. Maybe it is because of this - LOVE. I love him and I trust him. The thought of separating from him never crosses my mind. Is this love? But sometimes it is really confusing when here I am counting down to his arrival, waiting eagerly for the University application outcome, worrying about his visa, thinking of him every min and sec, waiting for him till the middle of the night but what I got is just a few seconds from him - Baby, I'm playing game still. I'll call you back. Baby, I'm busy, call me back in 15mins. Baby, I'm in the middle of game, I'll call you - How do you call me when you have no credit in your phone? I wonder. My heat sank whenever I get these replies from you. I need you baby, just a few mins of secureness from you. Am I asking too much? They say long distance relationship never works, well, I've been through. It is challenging and difficult but not impossible. Effort, Commitment to give and receive, Trust and Honesty are the magic words to LDR. Effort - I've been sending emails to him everyday to tell him how much I love him and like about him. 1 point! Commitment to give and receive - Does making phone call frequently, waiting for him till late night, considered? Trust - It has been a week so far and I can say, I trust him wholeheartedly. 2 points! Honesty - I've never been so honest in my life before! Extra 3 points! Hey, 6/4! Pretty well done huh! What about him?.................